Should I felt guilty for not spending time with my father?

     Since the pandemic outbreak, I did not have time to visit my family in Malaysia. My mother and sister were urging me to come back home as soon as possible due to my father healthy crisis. 

    I have two obligations in my life, an obligation to my parents and an obligation to myself. I still have a lot of works to do and establish my professional and personal life. I have my half life to live in Taiwan. Eventually I find that the perfect time to get to my life is in Taiwan instead of Malaysia.  Do I need to apologize for difficult times that my parents suffered? I know that it may be a good excuse for not going home. But how would I feel if something like my father passed away suddenly? Would I personally regret it? Then should I make an effort and visit them more often?  Even though I regret not visiting enough, but I know that my father still remembered my best achievement in life before he had a delirium.

    You reap what you sow. As my parents wish their children went to study or work abroad, they never wish any of their children live beside them. Here is the consequence of their action they did during our teenagers towards adults, there have been many instances where the father or mother has suffered the feeling of separation from children.

    For my opinion, it was not too awful. I am trying to forgive myself because there is a lot of things need to be regretted in my life.