How scarcity mindset affected my life

    When I started studying abroad in Taiwan, I was so excited at the opportunity to find more joy in recognizing many foreigners from different countries. I failed to enter engineering courses in high school. I found the opportunity to enroll in the engineering course at Pre-University. In the beginning, I believed that I could live in my purpose, I could become a great nurse to help people in need. However, my mother insisted I take a medicine course to become a doctor and have a better salary in the future. I might feel that I know nothing about biology. It was impossible to implant all the methodology of biology in my mind for a short period of time. I was so afraid for my career if I was ineligible for an extension period in Taiwan. 

    That reminds me of the most crucial point of the scarcity mindset, when the future is unclear, fear of the unknown reminded me that I need more education, and experience, to truly live my purpose. I did not deserve to find happiness and meaning in my life if I had no better degree or certification. I wanted to take one more year to take the steps to live my purpose. Therefore, after a half year, I gave in the medical course and took an engineering course instead. During that year, I struggle a lot to take risks or try new things, which is scary for my brain. My brain reminded me of all the bad things that might happen if I took a single step outside my comfort zone. I would be left with nothing if I was not good enough. I was trying to memorize all the difficult words by writing down tips and tricks on the blackboard in an isolated classroom and speaking out loud before an exam. I might lose friends or classmates in the process because I knew that I might make other people uncomfortable.
    Finally, I took one more year to complete my engineering course. I felt fortunate that I was admitted to entering the department of material science engineering course in the best university in Taiwan.
    Living my purpose is hard work. It is not something that will happen overnight. It takes a lifetime of work and requires persistence. The mental model is a pivotal tool to help me to proceed with my thinking process and stay in gratitude, happy, and optimistic. The positive thinking might reinforce my thought that I can concentrate on achieving my goals.