My first boyfriend in my life time

     SInce I was baptized as a Christian when I was 16 years old. I vowed to my God to restore my virginity until my marriage. I was a religious teenager in Methodist Church and devoted most of my time and energy to support the spreading messages about the Jesus things. Even though I graduated from high school and went to study abroad in Taiwan. I used to go church every weekend. 

    There was a man who has a crush on me since I was studying at Pre-University in Linkou. That year was too cold for me, and that is the first time that somebody give a precious gift to me, a bright purple puffer coat. I feel amazed and appreciated too much that someone care about me as I do not feel confident about myself on that time. I was too fat and a lot of pimples on my face.

    On my first year in National Taiwan university, I joined a community group, Overseas Student Association. There was a lot of foreign students gathered together . I decided to engage in some activities to acquaintance each others, such as dancing, traveling some places, or making some domestic food together. As I had been invited to dance with the guy who is crush on me, I do not know why I felt in love with him after the amazing activity. I know that I broke the engagement that I promised with my God, I feel guilty after meeting a boy. I feel I am mentally far away from my God since I met this guy. But I probably love him so much as he is my first love.

    When he said that he decided to quit his bachelor degree in Chemisty Engineer. I was woke that he is not mature enough to be my life partner. He did not care about his career to have a better degree, he just focus on his social matters and what made him become excited. He did not care about his degree status. Actually I felt regret that why I did not see him clearly on my years of university. If I did, I will find a better man on those years.