A letter to my sister

     Once you decided to buy a unit in Kuala Lumpur, I felt dissapointed that you and mother did not ask my opinion before buying a house. To make an informed decision, you suppossed to be requested to acess any risk may occur, and implement mitigation plans. The idea that I have heard only the greedy ideas that the housing prices will be increasing after LRT established. As we know, if government wants to build the infractructures, it should take at least 5~ 10 years and the traffic jam will never ending until the infrastructure has been finished. You were easily to be tricked when somebody told you that it must be increasing surprisingly.

    On the behalf of a older sister, you should be responsible to take care all of the financial status in family. Since you asked me and brother to come to Germany with you. You are destroying our lives, do you know? If you were not studying in Germany, you could save more and earn more money than now. You do not need to ask mother to pay a downpayment and lost her retirement money for the rest of her life. Our father also would not suffered depressed to live in a small room with mother for almost 3 years during the pandemic. 

in the past time

    從我們決定要買房子之後，我就去了銀行轉錢，我去玉山轉了一萬美金，台灣這裡抽取了８００元，馬來西亞也抽了１２００元左右．手續和轉帳費用就花了２０００多元的費用，讓我覺得大虧很多．後來我在ＦＢ尋找ＭＩＴ訊息，有人建議跟學生互換或使用虛擬幣（這兩種方式都不會抽取手續費）．在訊息裡面就有好幾個學生或來玩的學弟妹需要台幣的，我就進行了好幾次交易．一開始我會親自會面或交換證件證明本人做交易．後來就覺得馬來西亞人滿可以相信的，就沒有這麼做了

    那個學弟Ｇｏｈ　Ｐｅｉ　Ｊｉｅ是我目前最大戶，他會幫我去詢問其他馬來西亞朋友，也幫忙處理了好幾筆． 一開始我們只是單純互換匯率，我們只是純粹無聊的時候聊天，我們也從來沒有互相提供照片．後來我得知他要回馬，他就說可以幫忙帶一些名產給我．我就很不好意思，覺得要請他吃飯或送機回報一下心意．畢竟他幫了我很多．我那個貪小便宜個性, 就跟他要求買了一堆．的確，我想要送他回台北表達謝意，後來我到了機場，我擔心他不認得我（因為我沒有見過面），我就拍照給他，讓他了解下我的樣子．我的確是等一段時間，我就只有拿了名產就回家，他說他自己可以搭車回家．後來是我覺得自己賺了很多，因為他幫忙買了很多糖果，娘惹糕，名產，他的行李超重，也沒有跟我多收錢，他還額外請我吃咖啡糖果和香蘭蛋糕，我拿了這麼多，只收了我２５００元左右，我當然就很開心的回覆他我很喜歡．他在訊息也提到說有些學弟妹想要換學費，我當然也同意等他回覆．最近馬幣也跌很多，我就發訊息詢問進度，我也並沒有想要找他聊甚麼．當然我內心是寂寞的.希望有人可以聆聽我的心事.

      一直以來我很感謝你的無微不至的照顧，你是我心目中的男神，不能隨意使用語言侵犯．從小我的個性就是個大辣辣的傻大姊，很喜歡照顧朋友，同學，同事，我覺得照顧別人或者是跟別人亂聊天是我紓壓的方式．我會覺得這樣的我會很自在．自從認識你之後，我身邊已經沒有好朋友了，我內心是寂寞的，常常無法找人聊天紓壓．我都是靠著聽ｙｏｕｔｕｂｅ來麻醉自己．我只是很想找個不認識的人聊天，這樣我內心就不會像我杜絕那個汐止朋友那麼有點難過．我知道自己不能再有好朋友，可是我是多麼渴望找人亂聊心事，就像我以前傻大姊的那種感覺．我喜歡去跳舞也是因為我可以像瘋子那樣解放自我．現在的我，無聊的時候就只能睡覺，聽ｙｏｕｔｕｂｅ睡覺

    像是那天，我被老闆欺負，很想請假去唱歌，你那天說你媽媽要開刀心情不好，所以沒心情去，我也不知道找誰抒發情緒．跟你說的話，我認為你會覺得這種壓力跟你相比很小，所以後來我也沒有跟你說，我也不知道找誰說....

Sexual harrassment

     Recently, Taiwan is rocked by wave of sexual harassment allegations sparked by Netflix show. Over a week, more than hundred people spoke out the allegations against the people in power. There is a man I always concerned about. 

    In 2007, I worked illegally as an waitress in a private club because I was a foreign student. However,  I need a lot of money to have a  master degree tuition fees. He is the one of my customer in a private club. He always went to the private club with a lot of politician workers or partician leaders to have some fun, He was so generous to pay some extra tips to the waitress when he felt enjoyable to have special services, such as drinking a cup of wine with him. I was about the to be drunk after drinking some whisky or red wine with him. 

    After 3 months working in the club, I felt guilty to work illegally and I could not deal with getting drunk when I worked. I felt asleep, nausea or vomit after drinking a lot with my customer. Even though the pay is higher than other part time job, I still could felt my alcohol intolerance could be a life threatening reactions to my immune system.

    One day evening in the past, I just packed my backpack and ready to resign from my working place. When I was ready about to prepare my exam in library. I saw the politician in a car. His body guard just grabbed my hand and pushed me into his car. It was a daunting task to reject his invitation because the body guard was a a former police officer but I was an illegal waitress. When I entered his car, I felt very uncomfortable when he touched my thighs and concerned about my leaving from the club. I exclaimed and begged him to release me. Fortunately my ex-boyfriend was standing outside of the politician car. I was trying to forget about details on that day until the me2 activities sparked and he was about to be accused. A reporter 

Ashame of her

     What a shame to borrow money from your family but never told about her salary statements and debt that she need to cover